Author Archives: Natasha Holme

Eating disorder facts and statistics

  • Beat (www.b-eat.co.uk) is the new name for the former Eating Disorders Association.
  • Approximately 1.6 million people in the UK are affected by an eating disorder.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • Of those affected by an eating disorder 89% are female, 11% male.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • It is estimated that of those with eating disorders:
    • 10% are anorexic
    • 40% are bulimic
    • 50% fall into the EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) category

    Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures

  • Eating disorders affect children as young as six.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • Eating disorders have developed in women in their seventies.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder, from medical complications associated with the illness as well as from suicide.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • 20% of anorexia sufferers will die prematurely from their illness.Source: b-eat.co.uk/about-beat/media-centre/facts-and-figures
  • Some eating disorder autobiographies are banned from treatment centres as inpatients use them for learning new tricks. One such book, Marya Hornbacher’s autobiography Wasted, is known as an ‘Eating Disorder Bible.’
  • There exist two sub-culture groups, Pro-ana, and Pro-mia, which support eating disorders as a positive lifestyle choice. Ana is derived from ‘anorexia,’ Mia from ‘bulimia.’ Ana and Mia are personifications of the illnesses and are used as code. Those in Pro-ana groups make and wear red beaded bracelets to recognise each other and as a constant reminder not to eat. Those in Pro-mia groups make and wear blue beaded bracelets. It is thought that there are more than 500 Pro-ana and Pro-mia websites. These websites warn visitors to stay out if they do not already have an eating disorder or if they are in recovery. The content of the websites includes tips and tricks, forums and ‘thinspiration’ photo galleries.Source: news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/7259143.stm
  • 20% of young women diet either all or most of the time.Source: b-eat.co.uk
  • 1.19 million people watched Embarrassing Fat Bodies in the first week of August 2011, the third most watched programme on Channel 4 that week. 2.65 million people watched Supersize Vs Superskinny in the first week of March 2012, the fifth most watched programme on Channel 4 that week.Source: barb.co.uk/report/weekly-top-programmes-overview (The Broadcasters’ Audience Research Board)
  • Slimming World is the most popular slimming magazine. In the first half of 2010 their circulation was 302,738.Source: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_magazines_by_circulation
  • Dieting women read beauty and fashion magazines for ‘thinspiration.’
  • There is a National Eating Disorders Awareness Week which takes place February/March every year in the UK.

LGBT facts and statistics

  • Around 10% of women are wholly or partially attracted to members of the same sex.Source: avert.org/gay-people.htm
  • The lesbian (or lesbian tendencies) and eating disorder crossover could amount to around 142,400 women in the UK alone.
  • Very little research has been conducted into lesbians’ experiences of eating disorders. Rebecca Jones, PhD Psychology student at the University of the West of England, is addressing this need. Her discoveries so far have revealed the following reasons that lesbians fall into an eating disordered lifestyle:
    • a response to the stress and uncertainty of not fulfilling hetero-normative expectations
    • to fit into hetero-normative standards of femininity by being slim
    • to avoid one’s sexuality by focusing on food
    • to defocus people’s attention from one’s sexuality by being ill
  • There is a National Coming Out Day celebrated every year on October 12th in the UK and on October 11th everywhere else in the World.

The book facts and statistics

  • Samuel Pepys wrote 2,000,000 words. Lesbian diarist Anne Lister wrote 4,000,000 words. I have written 7,000,000 words to date (2013).
  • Lesbian Crushes and Bulimia is the first book to present a diary account of living as a lesbian with an eating disorder.
  • I have found just one other autobiographical book that combines the subjects of eating disorders and lesbianism. Written by celebrity Portia de Rossi, Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain, published in 2010, is a bestselling memoir about how her fear of coming out lead to her anorexia.

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Author of 'Yes'

Obsessive? Compulsive!

“The phone rang three times today and each time it was not her.”

A book for anyone who has been overwhelmed by the presence—and then the absence—of another person. And who hasn’t?

These are diary entries, true events, and yet they have a novelistic precision and a dramatic sense that reveal Natasha Holme as a natural, instinctive writer. She has an eye for telling details, an exact feeling for how much to tell (I’m assuming these diaries are somewhat edited) and a matter-of-fact honesty that keep her voice compelling even when the behaviour she’s describing is—frankly—bat-shit crazy.

We jump into the story without preamble. Natasha and Alex meet, as part of a larger group working in Germany. Everyone will recognise the little things that seem so important when we first feel attracted to someone—the ‘significant’ coincidences, similarities of taste—and there is a definite dramatic and sexual tension in the narrative as it follows the two girls’ tentative friendship. But even at this early stage, there is a warning sign: a reference to ‘beauty’ being the opposite of ‘big’.

The relationship is not consummated in Germany, and the uncertain dance continues, with the protagonists now separated. Natasha announces her intention of losing weight to impress Alex. At this stage Natasha is clearly in a state of heightened romantic and sexual feeling about life as a whole, and seems to be assessing everyone, male and female, in terms of their attractiveness to her. Although thinking constantly about Alex, and still in the throes of a serious crush on an old teacher (she has photos of her blown up and plastered on her walls), Natasha embarks on a programme of sexual experimentation with men, determined to bed five before she next sees Alex. At the same time she is becoming more involved with the Gay and Lesbian society at University, and we see her slightly obsessive tendencies manifesting in her catalogue of what she has learned about one member of the society she finds attractive, a fearlessly ‘out’ lesbian called Vikki. And Natasha’s determination to achieve any goal is demonstrated as the deadline for her bedding her five men approaches. These are warning signs of what is to come with her determination to lose weight.

About halfway through the book it starts to become less about Natasha’s relationships with people and more about her relationship with food and her weight. I admit I find this less gripping, but it nevertheless has a grimly compelling quality of its own—there were pages I found literally difficult to read as she describes what she does to herself to induce vomiting. The lists of food consumed are of far less interest than the chronicles of sexual and emotional misadventures, but they have their place as a measure of the obsession. And throughout she remains refreshingly honest—as when admitting that she ‘needs’ the male sexual harassment she gets at work to bolster her confidence—and amusingly self aware: “I shall soon be inflicting paralysis by conversation” (as she notes she is talking about food again).

This book is several things—an eye-opener for those of us who have never experienced what ‘thin=beautiful’ can do to someone’s self-image, a chronicle of awakening, an examination of the different things we look for in terms of intimacy, and a frankly terrifying description of what a sane and intelligent person can subject themselves to—but most of all it is a crisply-written, honest and unsentimental memoir that will strike many chords in responsive readers of any gender or sexual orientation.

“Hannah the Christian came to visit me at my request. I wish everyone were gay.” Without a single wasted word you know everything. Recommended.

VG Lee, lesbian author and comedian, wrote the hilarious (and fictitious) Diary of a Provincial Lesbian. This event, featuring a selection of authors, sees VG Lee’s first London reading for her new novel, Always You, Edina, and takes place at Polari at the Southbank Centre, Southbank Centre, Belvedere Road, London SE1 8XX. For updated details, see VG Lee’s events page.

February 11th (Mon)–February 17th (Sun) 2013

The theme for this year’s Eating Disorders Awareness Week is ‘Sock it to Eating Disorders.’ Beat is encouraging fundraising by inviting you to:

  • Wear your silliest socks to work or school and donate £1
  • Knit, crochet or make your own socks and sell them to your friends and family and donate the proceeds to Beat

More info here: b-eat.co.uk/support-us/get-involved/eating-disorders-awareness-week.

February 2013

This annual celebration began in February 2005 to mark the abolition of Section 28 which, since 1988, had prohibited schools from discussing gay issues. Events throughout LGBT History Month observe and raise awareness around LGBT and gay rights history.